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cam :)'s avatar

Thank you for the disclaimer, unfortunate that it's so necessary!

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Dilay 𓋹's avatar

Exactly… I still felt pretty bad while writing the article and changed my wording multiple times.

Thank you for your time and interest!

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Ulysses Santillan's avatar

We always need a villian, so we can point our fingers at and say that's the bad guy.

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Mohamed Ashraf's avatar

*Opens tavern doors*

Salutations fellow villains !

I’m genuinely thrilled you included the ending….btw

Now, on to business - twirls mustache, let’s out a BUHAHAHAHa, pets cat, _the only one who truly understands me_ etc etc

Welcome to villain therapy, yes, excellent job on going through this incredible article, and feeling the sting of self-awareness

And congratulations on allowing yourself to experience and contemplate self awareness, pitchfork-gifts all around

Remember, you are not your intrusive thoughts, you are not the narratives that pop into existence that have been haunting you with their incoherence for so long

And if you have time to read this, then you have time to PAUSE, yes, my friends, PAUSE, take a second, examine your intrusive thoughts, you don’t need to agree with them, you don’t need to follow them, if you are disgusted by them, good for you — you’re not a slave to them, they do not define you — you actually get to decide that for yourself, but choose wisely, don’t rush it, don’t rush to justify without feeling all the feelings, let em out, in all their ugliness, they happened

View the canvas of your mind as is, see it in all its chaos, incoherence and all, you can’t do anything about something you can’t see

So don’t run away from the sting, give it time, pause, take a break and just see that canvas

For you can set intentions, you can control your actions, you can screw up, see where you went wrong, and backtrack from there and try something new, and learn

Narcissistic thoughts may haunt you, but they do not define you

Being aware of your need for attachment is the first step, living with it in harmony with others and their autonomy is possible

Listen, imma glutton for gluten, but it Fs me up, and it’s not physiologically possible to fulfill either, and that’s ok

Channeling energy into something else is absolutely possibly

Those intrusive thoughts, the innocent human desires behind those insidious creeper pursuits — they are nothing but energy - when it comes down to it, sitting down and doing nothing isn’t helpful either, where will the energy go, GET A HOBBY, join a club, you’re not filling your time, you’re channeling that energy into pursuits that you would actually like for yourself

Here’s the slippery slope for the day folks — learning to be yourself — validating your subjectivity is an important skill, hopefully we can agree hurting people is bad……I really hope — a human will at times have to justify their existence, but hopefully it treads lightly on this earth, not drags people through unnecessary pain

If you share the human desires that make our skin crawl as we read through the horrors of Joe’s acts, then I would assume, you also share in the disgust — I mean he had to JUSTIFY his acts, surely that can validly infer that he himself is disgusted by the act of murder

I do hope so, i really hope most humans share that - i do hope that when offered “would you want a stalker and murder for yourself” before complying so readily to his justifications, he would be tempted to go “well maybe i don’t want that for myself, maybe i don’t want that for those around me”.

But if you’re nodding my morally ambiguous cousins, then that’s great — validate that, don’t fear the world, don’t fear “trust”, don’t fear treading lightly on this Earth, and Don’t fear one’s ultimate insignificance when it comes down to it — we get to share moments of intimacy with loved ones, they are moments, they are real, even if you never see them again, treasure those moments, they are luminous roses that don’t leave you — let people grow beyond you, let them live and thrive — in Cinema Paradiso, the grand father told that young man to leave and live his life - don’t give in to nostalgia, just love the moments, love those luminous roses few as they may be — want for people to grow beyond you, love the moments you shared with them.

Alright BOYS, we’re done here

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